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Sunday, August 25, 2013

Update! :)

SOOOO....I live! I'm back on! And ready to share my life adventures with you! This might be a bit draggy-ony, but I'm just going to post some pictures of what I've been up to lately :) k? k.

*This is my bud Bianca! :D We have been friends ever since my Junior year at Cedar High when she came and sat by me on a choir trip bus and randomly started talking to me and asked if I wanted a gummy worm...Seeing as I didn't know her in the least bit, I denied the gummy. It was a little too suspicious...haha but little did I know that this girl would be one of the best people I have EVER met in my LIFE. She left on a mission to Florida not too long ago and though I miss her a TON, she is doing fantastically! "Hispanic Sister" #1! :)

*Here it is! My crash! Scary. I know. My car is the one on the right....ya....but that was in 2011! Lets move on. haha

*Alas! I started working at SUU Admissions office! I liked it :) Except, I had to quit due to the fact that I am not going to be a full time student....but life goes on! This is Karin Stewart. We are pretty much besties. haha We were stranded on the side of the freeway on our way out of St. George to Cedar from a fellow Admissions groupie (Jessica) farewell. We decided to have a rock throwing competition while we waited because luckily, Karin's brother lived in Hurricane, so he helped us out! :D Shout out to families!

*Awww...Rebecca Cloward (now Mansfield) :) One of the most gorgeous women I've had the opportunity to grow up with! Thats right, she is married now! Its craaaazy to think that we are all growing up so quickly! I mean, It seems like yesterday we were in high school and running up and down our street in the rain and singing "Singing in the Rain". :) good times Becca. Good times :) Good luck on your trip through eternity with your knight in shining armor, Mr. Brian Mansfield! :D

*This is my BFF! Jacey Halterman (now Heaton)! Thats right! She is married! :D I knew she would be the first of us to get married. Even if she was my partner in crime on the playground. She has truly turned into an absolutely beautiful person inside and out! She has been SUCH an inspiration to me and everyone that has met her! She is so loving and caring about everyone! She is one of the most influential people I have been able to grow tough with :) haha she is the reason I know how to stand up for myself and helped me realize that I am a beautiful person regardless of how many times I had been teased when growing up. There really aren't any words that I could use to express how much I absolutely love and adore this woman! :') she really is the best friend I've ever had! Love you G! You are going to have all the happiness in the world with your lovely hubby Josh Heaton! :)

*MANTI TRIP! :D

*I have such good friends. I can't express how much I love them! :D Steffanie Ferrell is one of my "Hispanic sisters"! She hails from Peru! She is one of the most adventurous people I have ever met! The Bonnie to my Clyde...ya. lol we get into so much "trouble" together! But what I love the most about our friendship, besides the fact that I feel like I can truly be myself, is that we always make sure each other are having the time of their lives when plotting one of our schemes! :D We took a Manti trip with some mutual friends this past summer to see the Manti Pageant! It was spiritual, fun, exciting and adventurous! I absolutely had the time of my life!

*Kristalyn Williams (Now Rogers)! Even though she has been through so much, she was able to find love and overcome everything that life has thrown at her. She is such and inspiration and I love her so much for staying by me through my struggles and trials! She has helped me SO much! (Sadly, mostly through text because she lives in Provo) But she and I have gotten into some deep discussions and support conversations! We were and will always be there for each other and I am SO thankful that I became friends with 'the girl who wore dresses every day' in Elementary school! Haha! Because, had I not, I wouldn't have been able to have developed the relationship I have with her! :) Peace and Blessing in your marriage to Rhett Rogers, Red! Loves!

*Tiffany Bishop and Sam Richtstag! (I KNOW I botched his last names spelling lol sorry Sam!) The two High School Sweethearts have finally gotten engaged! The wedding is set for September 21st! :D Even through trials and difficulties, they have strived to do their best to be strong and supportive for one another. They are two of the cutest people :) they are so fun loving and happy! I hope to someday find my happily ever after! Good luck you two! :D

*BFF's! There is my little friend Steff on the bottom left! Miranda, on the bottom right, is my "Gus" haha! She and I just feed off of each others 'energico' haha! We never fail to have a fun time when together! :D But, she has moved up to Provo this past week and is greatly missed! I can't wait to see her again! :D Hopefully soon! See that guy on the top left? Ya. Thats Kevin Martinsen. haha! He is such a hoot! Regardless of how old he is...18... ;D he is one of THE most easy going and fun guys I've had the opportunity to know! We met through Steffanie and all four of us just hit it off! We hung out pretty much every day this summer. But, as Miranda, he has left us to Logan! And we REALLY miss him too! But, I guess school IS important ;) haha I can't wait till we are all reunited! Long live "The Crew"! ;)

*2/3 Minions!!! My little sis Mina and my pretty much sis Melissa Kofford! Its been SO awesomerific watching these two grow up together. Even when Melissa was living in England. I have always admired their friendship and hope it lasts FOREVER haha which, it will. :) They are the most beautiful sisters a sister could ask for! For real. They are models! :)

*We missed Kevin...So we made a paper one of him and took pictures with him around town :) Yay Flat Kevin! ;D

**Well, thats been my life for the past little while! Hope you enjoyed! :D Keep on keepin on!

Course correcting

*Whew*. Its been a very long time... A lot of things have happened. One of the biggest things that I have had happen to me was actually something that I can now see was a necessity in order for me to grow. It was in fact the most difficult thing that I have had to go through in my life. I've loved deeply and lost greatly. I was indeed in love with someone. I know, weird. But some things you just can't control. I haven't been able to share my story with many people for a long time, and actually, I didn't even share my "problem" with my mother until a week after it had happened. I had fallen in love with someone. Someone who I really believed was my soulmate! An absolutely perfect guy, but lets be honest, nothing is perfect. My life was looking bright and hopeful! Unfortunately, I have to say that it just didn't work out. I had learned the hard way that sometimes the power of the adversary is too great and difficult for some people to overcome and there just isn't anything I can do to change the decisions that he made... I stopped going to church for a while because it was too difficult to listen to the lessons and know the choices that he had made were pulling him farther away from Heavenly Father, and thats really what killed me...I couldn't go to church for a good while before I could listen without tearing up. I've finally found a way of forcing myself to go to church and listen and pay attention to the lessons and teachings, because I understand that regardless of HIS choices, I have a choice to make now. I could live life as if I was broken into pieces, give in to what the adversary wanted and let it take over my whole self, or I could continue attending church and do the things that would bring me eternal happiness and let me progress in becoming the person I know I can be. Unfortunately, I chose the wrong path for a while, but I finally saw the light and the love I receive by following my Heavenly Father. I've received more love, support and comfort than I ever have. Even though its been a while now since it had happened, I do still have my days where I just want to lock myself in my room and cry. Sometimes, I give in to that temptation. But I am thankful that its not every day as it was before. I get lonely. Very lonely...I see almost all of my friends getting married left and right as well as having families and growing with them, and I look at myself and realize that I don't have anyone who can give me that kind of fairytale love and I get upset. However, I still have my hope and faith that there will be someone else who will be perfect to me and TOTALLY worth the wait...Its just taking him awhile to get here. Well, I feel so much better getting this out. Now you can know and understand why I am the way that I am sometimes. Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met, but one thing I do want to say, is that I don't regret anything, even if my past was full of hurt. I still look back and smile because it made me who I am now. Thank you for taking time to read this entire post! It really means a lot. Haha congrats, you made it!